Thank you, America!
Posted by Nickless on 2007-07-10 21:48:28, Tuesday

Thank you, America, for the chance to live free,
Free of smiles and joys,
Free of girls and boys.

Thank you, America, for opportunity
To live in fear
And be called "queer".

Thank you, America, for protecting me
From my own kind,
From my own mind.

Thank you, America, for helping me see
Soul-fucking strife
At the end of my life.

Thank you, America, thank you so much
For the right to not write my most sacred thoughts
Out of fear they'll be used to fire those shots
That will end my dull, confused, hidden journey
That will end my right to never think clearly.

Thank you, America, for killing my soul
At thirteen, for providing a hole
To rage quietly in, for serving up whole
The myth of my sin.

Thank you, America, for letting me live,
Despite your intentions,
Despite your inventions,
Your preventive elections.

Thank you, America, for all the right words
That tumble like turds
From perpetual bleeders,
From the mouths of our leaders.

Thank you, America,
For the right not to die,
For the right not to cry,
For the right not to try for that ultimate high.

Thank you, America, soul full of God,
So full of right,
Soulful of might,
Goose-stepping left,
Goose-stepping right.

Thank you, America, for forcing me free,
Your guns aimed at me,
Your noose in the tree,
For bending my knee.

Thank you, America, for policing myself,
For my soul on the shelf,
For killing the dove,
For losing my love.

Thank you, America, for the freedom to hate
Kids who masturbate,
Boys who love boys,
Men-loving boys,
Boys who love men,
Different colors of skin,
One nation under God,
An uncovered bod,
And, measure for measure,
All innocent pleasure.

Thank you, America, for making me hate thee,
The womb of my Mother,
The lie that I am free,
The lack of another.

And thank you, America, for this most of all:
That whatever rises
Must stumble and fall.

I long for your crisis
And wait for your fall.
May you fail your devices,
And tumble... and FALL.

Nickless

Since I was a little boy in Amsterdam my mom and dad took me to all the latest art and photo exhibitions in galleries, the finest museums in my home town of Amsterdam, in Holland, and Europe ~ all over the world for that matter. I especially liked going to Rembrandt's home (now a museum) and hanging about in his studio and kitchen. This for me was very inspirational.

A birthday brought my first camera when I was very young. My camera, was it seems with me constantly ~ Taking pictures of my boyhood friends in provocative poses was admittedly mostly their ideas ~ Naturist summer camp in my childhood with my parents, brothers, and friends were fantastic experiences that gave me great pleasure and have fostered life long friendships ~ I did not fully understand or appreciate the significance of these experiences on my feelings until my teenage and subsequent years.

I have been collecting boy art prints, photo art and advertisements since I was a kid. Anything with a boy depicted tastefully (or not) (..must have been a big clue to my parents that I was gay). My love of the arts was so strong that I became an artist myself ~ studying drawing and painting from about age 6. ~ Finally getting my degree has made my parents very happy. Living well off my art income has made them even happier ~

They were not that thrilled in the beginning with my "Gay Sex Photo Pages" although always supportive ~ ~ they are very happy that I now am sharing my art passions here.

At this time I can't display my own paintings here in these galleries as I have agreements with several galleries regarding promotion. I will share some photos from my childhood and favorites from my personal collections with you. I will be adding to these galleries weekly, or as I gather up enough additional scans / prints to fill another gallery.

The images displayed are scanned, some gathered from the internet, some have been donated to my collection by friends over the years. Most, as far as I can tell, are in commercial use and/or in the public domain. Please come back as often as you can and enjoy you visits.